I’m going to be honest and confess it is not easy for me to ask for or even accept help. I’ve been petitioning God for awhile to make me completely humble and gentle in Christ’s likeness. Well, this is truly a humbling experience, but also an avenue for growth. I recognize my help comes from God, but I also know He uses others in that process as well. It’s easy for me to ask God for help, but when it comes to asking others, I get stuck. My thoughts are, “I can do it on my own. I don’t want to impose. They have their own things to handle.” These and other feelings are likely rooted in pride or something else I need to purge from my life, so I clearly need to work on that too. I say all this as I avoid the hard words I must say…. I need help. I cannot do this on my own, figure it out, or control this situation. I cannot accomplish what God has for me without help from others. I’m not even meant to. While I’m at it, I may as well tell you this too. I’m not good at being vulnerable either, but here goes. This situation is gut wrenching. The pain in my family I can’t fix. The questions without answers. The ‘what ifs’ and ‘whys’. It’s hard. It’s ugly. It hurts, and I don’t know what’s next. I walk around trying to figure out what to do…trying to be strong and not lose it. Being angry, feeling guilty, sad, scared, confused, hurt, and numb…all the emotions I’ve been really good at stuffing for most of my life. But here they are now…unavoidable. And then, in a moment… Someone shows up, and it turns my perspective back to Truth. Something happens that shines God’s Light. The voice of the Holy Spirit whispers how much Christ loves me and that He is right here. That I’m going to be ok. We’re all going to be ok. I feel it in the depth of my being! So many things, in so many ways, shift all the bad and lift me back up. Most of the tears I’ve shed, and there have been many, are grateful tears for the amazing love of my Heavenly Father. For God’s protection, provision, grace, mercy, faithfulness, and yes…peace. I am extraordinarily blessed with people in my life that surround me with love and are more than willing to help me…all I have to do is let them. Humbling for sure, but overwhelmingly comforting! I have story after story of how God has been and is working, and I’m happy to share! So if you are interested, let’s chat! In the meantime, I’m doing what I’ve been told to do—ask for help. This page will be maintained by Kierson, who will adjust needs as they are met or new ones come up. Thank you for standing with me and my family! You are loved!!